Melancholy...Only despair awaits....

somehow it feels like everything feels so futile. what a horrible way to end my first semester in uni. it was really stupid. it seems impossible to salvage my grades for that stupid module. i'm going to need some stellar marks for the finals just to bring it to a semi-decent grade.

sigh, don't really want to disturb my other friends. afterall, they are having their own fair share of stress from the exams.

everthing else for that module seemed to be going fairly decent as well. not to mention there are lots of imba crazy muggers who spoil the market by getting ridiculous marks and cause the average to be equally ridiculous. i really got pwned....did i self-pwn? maybe. probably.

perhaps i'm destined to be the bottom feeder. i was really astonished by their reactions. it's like....they already accepted their fate long ago. somehow it's no wonder that i landed in this dismal situation. i don't know, maybe i would have felt better if i was the one who is solely responsible for causing this plight. some people say i'm just unlucky. oh well. at least i've seen a grade that probably most people can't even fanthom throughout their entire uni life. lucky me. haha.

now i really feel useless. i'm not good at studying, not good at sports, can't do anything particularly useful....you could say lacking in every department eh?

it's a really sickening feeling that i don't know how many people will actually get to experience. everything seemed ok, then suddenly you get whooped by some people who don't really seem to care. you get taken down when they self-destruct. you know, like in pokemon. everyone gets knocked out. mass destruction. boom.

i don't even know how many people will see this. sigh. but people are probably too busy and already too stressed to want to care about it. i wouldn't want to trouble them either. haha.

some people are stressed even when they already have A's for everything. some people have the money for retail therapy to destress. some people are already very well prepared. can afford to take a day off.

at this point of time i haven't really found a way to console myself. maybe i was expecting too much in the first place....

Doomed....Sometimes sh*t happens.

sigh...i'm really disgusted and confused and stressed out by the shock. how? what to do now.....there's option A and.....option B. each has it's own implications. i feel so jaded. and it was going fairly well too...it was a stupid mistake

i'm really lost for words. well, i'll sign off with a picture

Exams! Haven't really had one in a while...

hmm...i guess it's about time for an update here. well, been rather busy mugging for the exams which are coming up (first paper is in 2 day's time and the last paper is in 2 weeks). ok, at least they are nicely spread out. been doing some past year papers but i wouldn't really know if i got them correct. i guess it's just to get the feel so i won't freak out on the actual day.

after the exams it's going to be christmas! time to go shopping and destress and play more jubeat! 1 more rank to unlock Shining Star. almost there. it's about time i got the g-shock i've been eyeing for quite a while and also some other stuff. oh ya, more time for gym and running and such. but there's also going to be HO and trainings.

for those of you wondering, nope, i still have no idea how my group did for the accounting project. the results should be out by this week though.

ugly betty and heroes are back in their 4th seasons! heroes is a bit boring. haven't really see the breakthrough yet. betty on the other hand just keeps getting better. she finally gets a (slight) improvement on her wardrobe with a new hairdo and specs! the braces are also coming off soon. the scriptwriters have to complicate things as usual by throwing amanda into the picture and turning things into a bizarre love triangle with betty and matt. although amanda is still looking hot, i still think she should just back off. haha.

i guess that's all the time i have for now. cya later!