Melancholy...Only despair awaits....

somehow it feels like everything feels so futile. what a horrible way to end my first semester in uni. it was really stupid. it seems impossible to salvage my grades for that stupid module. i'm going to need some stellar marks for the finals just to bring it to a semi-decent grade.

sigh, don't really want to disturb my other friends. afterall, they are having their own fair share of stress from the exams.

everthing else for that module seemed to be going fairly decent as well. not to mention there are lots of imba crazy muggers who spoil the market by getting ridiculous marks and cause the average to be equally ridiculous. i really got pwned....did i self-pwn? maybe. probably.

perhaps i'm destined to be the bottom feeder. i was really astonished by their reactions. it's like....they already accepted their fate long ago. somehow it's no wonder that i landed in this dismal situation. i don't know, maybe i would have felt better if i was the one who is solely responsible for causing this plight. some people say i'm just unlucky. oh well. at least i've seen a grade that probably most people can't even fanthom throughout their entire uni life. lucky me. haha.

now i really feel useless. i'm not good at studying, not good at sports, can't do anything particularly useful....you could say lacking in every department eh?

it's a really sickening feeling that i don't know how many people will actually get to experience. everything seemed ok, then suddenly you get whooped by some people who don't really seem to care. you get taken down when they self-destruct. you know, like in pokemon. everyone gets knocked out. mass destruction. boom.

i don't even know how many people will see this. sigh. but people are probably too busy and already too stressed to want to care about it. i wouldn't want to trouble them either. haha.

some people are stressed even when they already have A's for everything. some people have the money for retail therapy to destress. some people are already very well prepared. can afford to take a day off.

at this point of time i haven't really found a way to console myself. maybe i was expecting too much in the first place....

Doomed....Sometimes sh*t happens.

sigh...i'm really disgusted and confused and stressed out by the shock. how? what to do now.....there's option A and.....option B. each has it's own implications. i feel so jaded. and it was going fairly well too...it was a stupid mistake

i'm really lost for words. well, i'll sign off with a picture

Exams! Haven't really had one in a while...

hmm...i guess it's about time for an update here. well, been rather busy mugging for the exams which are coming up (first paper is in 2 day's time and the last paper is in 2 weeks). ok, at least they are nicely spread out. been doing some past year papers but i wouldn't really know if i got them correct. i guess it's just to get the feel so i won't freak out on the actual day.

after the exams it's going to be christmas! time to go shopping and destress and play more jubeat! 1 more rank to unlock Shining Star. almost there. it's about time i got the g-shock i've been eyeing for quite a while and also some other stuff. oh ya, more time for gym and running and such. but there's also going to be HO and trainings.

for those of you wondering, nope, i still have no idea how my group did for the accounting project. the results should be out by this week though.

ugly betty and heroes are back in their 4th seasons! heroes is a bit boring. haven't really see the breakthrough yet. betty on the other hand just keeps getting better. she finally gets a (slight) improvement on her wardrobe with a new hairdo and specs! the braces are also coming off soon. the scriptwriters have to complicate things as usual by throwing amanda into the picture and turning things into a bizarre love triangle with betty and matt. although amanda is still looking hot, i still think she should just back off. haha.

i guess that's all the time i have for now. cya later!

Holiday? I think not...

it's all over! i've submitted my IT project and biz law assignment! hell week is over! i'm free!.....NOT!

i wish that was the case but unfortunately it's not. i'm sure many people looked foward to this weekend because it's a long weekend. a well deserved break. but, no, some people don't like holidays. and i have to suffer for it (again). if you want to see me, you can drop by TR154 at 1030 on Monday. yes, that's because apparently it's standardized that all AA101 tutors want to have it on that day. well, apparently there aren't that many AA101 tutorials on that day because i've not heard anyone else from other classes complaining that they have to be back in school. what a bummer. i guess people who made us sit in class for 2 hours in school on hari raya would have no qualms doing the same for deepavali. what was i thinking?

alright, that leaves me with a normal 2 day weekend. that's ok right? sure, if not for my AA101 group project (i fear for all of us. at this rate we'll flunk. time to pull it together guys!) and my IT business plan (yes the 20 page one). oh yea, not to mention my comm fund oral assessment. all 3 of the above items will be graded and make up a significant part of each module's grades. great. not to mention the tutorials for monday's lessons will have to be done.

and i seriously need to pick up my paycheck. that sum of money has been sitting in the A/P of my previous employer for way too long. i need to do some shopping. the zip on one of my berms broke. time to get a new pair. it sucks to be a student when you are broke, overworked and under-rested

if only that was all. sigh. what to do when a strong competitor arises?

i guess it's time to get some rest before working myself overtime and devoid myself of enjoyment for the next 2 days. good night~

Crisis! Hell(-ish) week begins!

2 days since the semester resumes and i've already got work up to my neck and it's all due to happen within the next 7 days! here's the lodown:

1) Comm fund written assessment tomorrow!

2) FM tutorials to be done by Friday!

3) Accounting Quiz to be done during weekend!
(they just told us today and we have like 4 days to study?!)

4) Biz law assignment (20% weightage) due on Monday!
(i've been at it since last thursday and i'm only 75% done)

5) Biz law tutorial presentation on Monday!
(our 3rd group member abandoned us so i'm left to run a 2 man show with my friend)

6) Access assignment due on next Tuesday! (it's a real pain to do)

i'll really need to allocate whatever time i have carefully bearing in mind practices here and there. phew hopefully i'll survive this week unscathed. alright, no more time to spare, cya~

Recess! Time to do some reflection and look beyond...

Alright, it's recess week! (already?) yup, that means half of my 1st semester in ntu has already passed. time really flies. in a few more weeks it's going to be the exams. not to mention the various projects and assignments i will need to submit very soon. but before all that, i think i should spend some time reflecting on the weeks that had already passed and see what learning points there are.

ok, as a recap, things started out pretty much in a slump but fortunately things are starting to look better. hall is damn happening and it's lots of fun getting involved. and for some strange reason, class does seem somewhat interesting (though that doesn't really prevent myself getting into a daze during lectures. lectures just have this myterious effect which gives you an "out of body" experience. lmao) especially after i got rid of that tutor with a damn lousy attitude. my current FM tutor is at least 10x better than her.

i'm really thankful for the people around me that i've got to know. i really hate being alone and i need people to hang out with. hall is where i've really got to spend time with some really great friends. one thing i realized is that (at least in class context) nbs people tend to be rather competitive (i'm not excluding myself because i honestly have no idea how i behave in class) and because of this it's quite difficult to know them better (less group mates and some people who have a lot of tutorial classes in common with me). but i guess it's ok, it's something i can live with. but i MUST emphasize that people from hall 3 rock! haha.
(well, an exclusion clause applies to certain people in ntu who are plain annoying. there aren't many but there are still a few. hahaha)

ok, after retrospection, it's time to look into the future. let's start with the not-so-distant future. some things i plan to do by this week
1) finish my holiday assignments
2) file my notes and tutorials by module
3) do my reading up from textbook and other readings
4) not to forget to squueze in some fun

hmm....maybe i should look at the upcoming events as well
1) prepare for cult night
2) cult night
3) mug for exams
4) EXAMS!
5) trainings for the various sports and games
6) HO!
7) christmas~*
hmm...looks like it's going to be tiring but a very enriching few months coming up. oh ya! i'm going to upgrade my phone after exams. maybe can start checking out what phone to get soon.

the jubeat ripples OST that was just released is super addictive! my only goal for jubeat now is to unlock shining star and full combo it on all levels. but it's going to take a while. probably after exams.

alright, that's all the time i have for now. going back to hall later. going to camp in hall and mug the whole week (at least most of it). cya!

Ripples! New horizons...

In case you haven't noticed, my blog has a new layout! this time it takes after the latest installment of jubeat, jubeat ripples which has an overall light and bubbly feel to it.

hmm....the waves seem to be calming down and i guess i'm somewhat getting out of the emo trap. let's just hope start things start picking up from here eh?

putting unhappy things aside, i took some time to go through stuff that actually happened in retrospection. the past few weeks have been a blur and i'm not expecting it to be letting up anytime soon. i already see the hordes of projects coming up. the thing that have affected me the most is the people that i have met in the past month or so. it hasn't been a particularly long time but we've been through quite a lot together. people have been around when i've been feeling down and i really appreciate it (even though sometimes i don't look like it. haha.). i hope to be there when i'm needed as well. the direction where things are headed are slowly becoming clearer as well and that's definitely a good thing.

recently i found that i have less time for gymming but i guess playing more sports (or trying to) in hall kind of makes up for it. i'll try to still go during weekends and i'll try to squeeze in a session during the week. i'm signing up for the Nike human race and i hope to get some training here in campus. (trust me, the 179 route is a killer. the slopes are just crazy)

anyway, last night we had our Hall III dinner and dance, sin city! it was a blast! everyone dressed up in their formal wear. the girls really put in a lot of effort in dressing up with make-up and everything. it was casino themed so we had some tables opened. no real money was involved though. we played with chips and those who won the most from each game stood a chance to get a prize. as usual, my luck was terrible and i practically lost everything. we also had our pageant. jonathan won hall king and mr photogenic BUT he still lost his bet for not winning mr popular. as such, we'll get to see the hall king run around NTU in his boxers. hahaha.

here's a shot of all of us after the pageant

we'll be having IBG floorball tonight. hopefully we won't get trashed like what happened for basketball. i think that the things that you do in hall will be with you for a long time and for now i'll try to make the most of it. there's definitely more to uni life than just studying.

having said that, let's not neglect our academics and maybe i should go mug a little and then take a quick nap before dinner and IBG later. so, that's all for now. cya! :)

edit: just tried registering for the nike human race and the registration is full. sian.